I have been in a horrible place mentally or spiritually. I am trying to work my way through it. I ‘ve never been this depressed about things. I am trying to have a wellness period, refocus on myself (or maybe I should not focus on myself as much, that could be the problem), and pay attention to the good stuff. I need to stop my mind running to negative places. I am way too harsh on myself and super sensitive. I remember the astrologer C.E.O Carter saying once that a lot of Saturn and Neptune in a chart is a difficult combo (I have lots of Saturn and Neptune). It’s difficult because you are too sensitive for this world (Neptune) and yet at the same time are faced with the challenges of hardship even more and then there is that self-critical or nature (Saturn) or harshness from others. However, these two planets can balance each other because they are opposite in nature. I just seriously need to grow some thicker skin. Funnily enough, I have now developed eczema on my eyelids and have nice crusty lids and patches of hard skin all over the place.
Anyway, back to keep my mind off
I don’t know how long this will take me. All day probably. No bed until posted. It gives me something to redirect my energies towards. Something I love. This will give a little break from synastry and then on Saturday and Sunday I will do Mercury-Mars and Mercury-Jupiter, some lively combinations. It will be nice to complete the whole series.
All the best, Julie